I’m like 200lbs seriously like the last time i checked the scale it was 185lbs...a big bitch!
When I was younger I constantly obsessed over my weight. Not even because I was anorexic or anything but because my doctor was telling me I was too big or my mom was telling me I needed to slow down with the eating LMAO.
I never wanted to share how much I weigh. This may sound random (and you're probably like who even asked weirdo) but I swearrrr kids were always comparing weights. Or saying "I bet I could pick you up." Nooooo, you can't lol. I remember being told at 7 or 8 (the memory is kinda blurry) that I was supposed to weigh 78lbs for my height and age. I was nowhere near 78lbs, I think I was maybe 88-92lbs (idk i just remember that I was nowhere near no 78). I guess I’ve always felt big lmao. One because I was tallish and two because I was chubby.
Weight was a really big thing especially during the 2000s, looking back at movies from that time having a big butt was an insult. But during the last few years of the 2010s, there’s been a lot of “body positivity.”
I was on twitter recently, and there was a thread about girls who've gained weight. Like from 119lbs to 180lbs, but I'm telling you they don't even look almost 200lbs. This emphasized to me that weight is superficial. If you look good, you look good no matter how much you weigh.
On my own, I’ve become really confident about my weight. I stopped checking the scale (yes in middle school I was weighing myself often, yikes.) partially because I’ve slimmed out as I’ve gotten taller and lost the pre-puberty weight. But mainly because this is the body I’ve got so I might as well get used to it. Don’t take this to mean i’m pigging out because I’m not trying to be obese.
I think that’s the confusion with the body positivity movement. A lot of people think it’s encouraging people to be fat or even for fat people to stay fat. It’s not that at all. It’s about building confidence in people who have been told they shouldn’t be confident because of how they look. It’s about being able to love yourself while still being able to work to achieve the body you want. Or even just loving being a fat girl period, without changing yourself. It’s not to shame skinny girls because the message is that everybody’s body (ehh hard to write) is valid and we shouldn’t all aim to be one thing.
In society there’s always the ratio of the privileged to the misfortunate. White people to Black people. Straight people to gay people. Men to Women. Skinny people to Fat people. So the effort is being made to level the playing field, not to pull anybody down so everybody must do their part.
It’s also interesting for me how every group has reclaimed the word that was meant to hurt them. “N***a”, “Bitch”, “Fat”. So lastly we are not calling ourselves “fat” until we own the word. What I mean by that is that you should not use “fat” towards yourself as an insult. Our bodies take in that negative energy from the word and it is reflected in how you feel. So be kind to your body and don't talk down on it, even if you’re “joking” (which 9/10 you’re not). Reclaim the power in the word because yes you are a fat bitch and you look great.
okay bye, tell a friend! xox--yeah I'm not doing that lmao.
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